On Testing - Measuring Our Existence Against the Possibility of a Greater Power
Zenodo (CERN European Organization for Nuclear Research) June 22, 2026 DOI: 10.5281/zenodo.20796934 (opens in new tab)
Study at a glance
AI-extracted from the abstract| Characteristics | Peer reviewed |
|---|---|
| Topics | Anxiety Meditation |
| Keywords | Circumstantial evidence Feeling Power physics Subjectivity Test biology Dehumanization Quantum Aesthetics Thought experiment Depression economics Lens geology Interpretability |
| Key points | Argues that testing the limits of being human should stop, and that acceptance, rather than explanation, is the appropriate response to one's own mind. |
Abstract
On Testing asks what it means to test the limits of being human — and quietly argues for stopping. It opens in "a deep purple" of depression, then turns the subjectivity of color (my purple may be your red) into a meditation on what we cannot share and what we do: the same blood, "the same electron super positioned in all of us," the dark that is "a feeling we share, not a color we see." Told in retrospect, it recounts a long struggle with depression and anxiety and a circumstantial way out through years of Transcendental Meditation — explicitly not offered as a clinical cure or a universal path. From there it tests the quantum lens against lived phenomenology: spoon-bending across many worlds, the "bottomless cup," and the feeding of the five thousand read as a superposition collapsed by intent. It lands on acceptance — "I can't explain my own mind, so I'm done testing it" — and an upward turn: reach for the stars.